Against All Odds

Hey, Puppy. I hope you’re enjoying this Easter day? I hope you’re feeling well (physically, emotionally and spiritually). I hope your tummy is full of healthy food.

I’m working here today…I continue packing the basement. No nice new clothes for Poppy, no church with family and friends…no fancy lunch. Know what? I’m okay with that because my work brings me one day closer to you and our little family. I awakened this morning with a wet face. Not sure why but so many tears and emotions. I just miss you so much and worry about you, too. I worry that we may never be together or that you’ll make the wrong move and it will hurt you in some way. I’ve said many times, I’d rather never be with you and hold you than lead you to a situation that might hurt or harm you. My prayer today is that father will guide your heart, your mind and choices to the best possible outcome for everyone – forever keeping my sweet puppy safe and whole.

I found this “prayer for my son” and wanted to share it with you – seems perfect on Easter…the literal resurrection of God’s son. Father’s son arose on Easter and, deep in my heart (with your great power), I believe our son’s will rise too.

The image below is a screenshot at the end of this video – how precious to think this could be Noah and Jeffrey all cuddled together…seen while the lyrics show “love will never let you be the same”. So very true.

The song is by Sarah Brightman, one of my favorites. This particular song and video are exactly how I feel when I think back to December 2009 in Eden Prairie. I can still see your handsome face and long skinny toes all cozy in your big chair while I made us dinner. I was so happy that night just being there with you. I’ve never felt more at peace or where I belonged than there that night with you as the soft white snow fell outside in the moonlight. It’s true….love changes everything. Listen closely to this song and its lyrics. Towards the end, the lyrics show “yes love, love changes everything…LIVE or PERISH in it’s flame”. That one line is a perfect description of where we are on this Easter day. We are clearly on the cusp of something new. Only father God can direct our path now.

The countertops were installed Friday and they look nice…backsplash tiles are being installed starting yesterday and will continue tomorrow. Painters return Tuesday to continue their work.

Enjoy this day and keep me close. You KNOW where I am. I love you, honey. xo

Daddy, are you ready for chocolate chip pancakes? We’re on it! This has to be the sweetest child – precious. I see you every time I watch him. How wonderful to make daddy pancakes on Sunday morning.

Things continue here…new countertops will be installed Friday followed by the new kitchen wall tile. Paint work/prep is on going. I met with the landscape guys yesterday…that will start in 2-3 weeks time which marks the approaching end of this. Generally, I think this work is going to be 4-5 weeks beyond what I’d hoped – likely being able to list this house around May 1st? We’ll see. So many moving parts! I wish I was dealing with YOUR moving parts! hahahaha. Oh, what fun we’ll have! Yummy. Know what? How do I KNOW that I love you? When I think of you…sex is (for sure) part of my thoughts, but my dream is holding you (or being held) in the dim candlelight…or sitting outside watching the sunset feeling your hand in mine. At our ages, sexual pleasure is still fabulous but could never compare to spiritual/soul closeness with your person. You are my heart and I cannot wait to experience you…celebrate you every day. ‘Dem green eyes…

I hope all is well with you? You have gone nearly radio silent…mostly only X posts. Apparently she has you in “lock down” mode? I worry about that. As you know, I use to be in her court and heard all the noise from that side. Make no mistake, if she is pressing down hard on you about posting – accusing you of communicating with me? – be CERTAIN she has told her sister, mother and some girlfriends what she “suspects”. Why is that significant? Well…should anything happen > trouble. Regarding your X posts, I absolutely “get” many of your messages but some of your reposts are lost on me. Sorry, honey, my mind is often in overload. No matter, I feel you strongly in my heart everyday…every moment. I believe in your love and commitment to OUR little family 100%. Somehow I know that later this year, we’ll be in some secret place finally able to express our love and affection for each other. For me (as I’ve said countless times)…I’ll have made it home.

It’s early here…I’m about to have a coffee and get the day started. 5:40 am. I hope you have a wonderful day, Puppy – go for a walk and look at the trees, listen to the birds chirp and sing as they prepare their nest for a new family. Exciting, right? I love you!! xo

Carter’s video (short clip) link :

https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1KWjCvJfDu

Hey, honey…

Hoping you’re having a wonderful day. Tummy full? How about HEART full?…today? I saw this AI image that someone made of you on FB holding a newborn – precious and perfect! Oh, how I long for this day. Yes, it’s true – we’ll be more like Pawpaw’s than daddy’s but still…blessed days! This song by Amy feels perfect.

We worked all weekend and continue today. It’s been busy but one day closer, right? Puppy, I miss you so much. It’s been so long. I want to be with you and take care of you (and hopefully the boys) more than anything. I wish on this very day that I was firing up my candle (you can dim the lights – you know how *wink*)…and getting a yummy dinner started. Maybe a movie and cuddling later? I can’t wait to just be close to you…even in silence reading a book. I enjoy being in your energy orbit and I hope you feel the same. Energy cannot be faked. One either feels it or they don’t. I can’t wait to see the world together – even more excited about taking the boys and showing them things! Traveling, camping, hiking, gardening, holidays, LEARNING / lessons (any and everything) I’m excited about everything. It’s never too late. So many firsts.

I hope you’re eating your blueberries, avocado, matcha, lean protein, etc. Lots of water!! Brain tests/exercises every day! Rest well and know I’m right there with you. That’s where I live. I love you, Baby. xo

See images below song post…

Hey..

Quick note tonight. I’m headed to bed early – exhausted. We’ve been working nonstop and will be working tomorrow and Sunday. I’m pushing this work as much as possible – just dreaming of the finish line. It seems I’ve been working on this (since last fall…packing, moving, etc) for so long now.

The economy is getting a bit shaky…it’s very unsettling and I continue to pray that the real estate market will remain stable until I can get this place sold. We’ll see?

I hope you’ve had a wonderful day – wherever you are. I hope your sweet tummy if full of good healthy food AND I hope you’re doing your online brain exercises! Get some rest and keep me close – you always always always know where to find me. I LOVE YOU soooooooo. xo