Hey, Puppy, I’m still here at the farm and finally about to leave. My Painters in the city said they’d be delayed until Thursday AND a few things needed attention around here so I decided to stay and clean the place up a bit. I pressure washed the back porch, repotted a few plants, picked up tons of fallen sticks, etc. Our yard lady came to mow yesterday…everything is looking better and I’m glad. All that was missing was you. Like at your place, the stars in the night sky show out every night!!
Not sure you’d ever want to come here with me – as I’ve said in the past, it’s very country and simple. The house is an older, 1 story brick and very inexpensive…many of the neighbors are like the area you grew up in – they kinda live like hillbillies. Yikes. Unfortunately, I can’t do a thing about how some of the neighbors live…only focus on this place. My parents never had much money so things around here are homemade and very simple. No matter, it’s so peaceful and I love being here.
I’ll be leaving here in about an hour (about 3:30 est) so will arrive in the city around 10:30-11pm. I’ll post more tomorrow. I hope you’re doing well and enjoying this beautiful weather. Keep me close – I love you!! xo
This song reminds me so much of that morning. Listen to the words closely and follow the story Michael is telling in this song. As I drove out your big gates for the last time (it’s been 11 years), my heart was so heavy. It was the most unbearable separation I’ve ever felt. I know (deep down) you felt it too…your Poppy had been exiled.
The day was profound because you and I had FINALLY broken through into REAL life. It was a day of great anxiety, fear, sadness and later that evening – despair, as we knew we’d crossed the line that required sacrifice. On that day (and the evening before), my heart was about to explode to tell you how much I love you and HAVE loved you for many years. As you know now, Poppy just could not hold it in any longer.
People speak of “sacrifice” candidly…but all that live (or ever have) know that sacrifice (in many forms) is required to rise higher into the “heaven on earth” only the FEW ever experience. For me, I was willing to sacrifice her friendship and the friendship of every person in her orbit (her family and friends) in a SECOND <for you> if it came to that. I was willing to give them all up “IF” I was “found out” that night (may 12th @ 7 pm)…the night it all came to life when I found the courage to say, “you know I have feelings for you?” It was a profound moment as we’d broken through. Even though I wasn’t successful in the sense that we immediately found a private space in that huge house to embrace and hold each other….an embrace that would have felt like the reunion of a 10,000 year separation….nor was I gifted to touch your precious face, to taste your lips – no matter, we’d broken through into what WOULD COME someday in the future.
A future that will find us cuddled in our big bed together, fireplace burning – a perfect homecoming especially when Noah’s little soft, sweet smelling body is lying between us. No “mother” who has ever lived that simply birthed a child with her body…could ever compare to Poppy who will have crossed heaven and earth to bring / birth a baby son into this world by whatever means necessary. A belief so strong I’ve not allowed anything to get in our way of seeing the boys live and breathe.
I loved your FB post yesterday…it was precious to me. I’ll be here at the farm today and until midday tomorrow. I’ll be doing some things around here that need to be done before heading out. I hope you enjoy this day. Keep me close – I’m right there with you all cuddled in your heart. I love you, honey! xo
Hey, Puppy. Quick update. We’ve made it to the farm and settled in a bit. Been here about an hour. The unloading will be tomorrow around 9. I’ll be glad to have yet another full truck load transported back here and less in the city.
I watched your video and I LOVED it!! So sweet! I thought this song and video were perfect…a favorite. I hope you’ve had a nice day and your tummy is full.
Get some rest and keep me close. You KNOW, right?! Nite nite…I love you! xo
Hey, honey. Hoping you’re having a great day! It’s sunny and warm here. I’m going to keep this post short as I’m completely overwhelmed today. The movers will be here again at 9 am tomorrow and I still have tons of things to pack. I’ll be headed your way Friday arriving there in the early evening. I’m driving this huge truck again…I should be good at it – I’ve done it enough. The guys will unload it at my rental house Saturday morning then I’ll return here either Sunday or Monday. Not sure yet?
The kitchen tiles are installed and grouted now (looks great) and the rear terrace is finished now too, only lacking the sealer.
I’m hoping to get things underway here again next Tuesday morning. My painters will be working here tomorrow even while the movers load. Onward, right?!
Hoping you’re okay and excited about the future! How wonderful to be with you on this very evening. Would be precious. I’ll never take a single day with you for granted. I remember so well our visits in the mornings…seeing Sam out the rear french door. Each day was new and fresh. It always felt like home. I miss it and you so much. I wish we were in our green house checking on seedlings…getting ready to plant them in our little garden.
Take good care of my Puppy, okay?! Keep him safe and well fed until I can. I’ll update in a day or so. I love you so much! xo