Florida, circa late spring/summer 1998. One if the WORST weekends of my life. They say that people are NOT always who they seem and with regard to the two on the right, facts! This was only a year or so after you’d said “I do” and given this lady (and her whole family) great wealth and POWER OVER OTHERS – and she used it! Every small “slight” or grievance over many years were repaid!! She was always envious of Paula, me and anyone that she felt were smarter or had more advantages (family $) than her. She and this grinning, HATEFUL sister were given free reign to treat others any way they wanted – and they DID! At this point in her history – she felt famous, powerful and untouchable…and rather than draw closer to your dear friends and encourage them – she used that NEW POWER to berate, dominate and intimidate them (especially ME) whom she’s always had this bizarre love/hate relationship with. She treated your family that way too, particularly your mother. She and the hateful sister treated me so bad on this trip, I’ll simply never forget it. I kinda have PTSD to this day after that long weekend. Horrible.
Unfortunately, the greater world doesn’t know the person that I knew. To them, YOU (and me) are the bad ones…guilty of all kinds of unpardonable sins….and SHE (and this arrogant, hateful, social climbing sister) are the “good ones”…humble, “godly” women. The public has never heard this woman slam down keys or slam doors or yell “FUCK YOU, Brt!!!! Of course…we have. It was THIS trip that I referenced in my long post last year – it was when C yelled out at me, “SHUT UP! SHUT UP!! SHUT UP!!! SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!” She did this for absolutely no reason at all. I’d already been treated like dirt all weekend while these two held up in a luxury hotel room (that you paid for). I found myself sitting alone on the sofa while they gossiped in the master suite with the door closed. Later (late morning) when they finally came out into the living room/kitchen area to have coffee – they acted like I shouldn’t even be there. They seemed to resent me for even being there? It was terrible. I’ve never felt more alone IN THE PRESENCE of two other people?!! The cold shoulder and “silent treatment” were in full force. Awful experience and I’ve often wondered – how on EARTH does Brt live with this woman? How has he been around her since exiting the womb? SOOOO sad that he’s pinned all his hopes and dreams for a normal loving family on this mentally ill (sometimes hateful) woman.
When I look at this image and see it through your eyes – you’re looking at two people here that have been in your life for many years – me for 37+ and her since you could barely walk. No matter, each person has a very different heart and mind. Very different. One of these two love you unconditionally and dreams of a simple life filled with peace, joy and precious little feet running about the house. The other person seeks reparations for all your wrong deeds, full submission by you and, let’s not underestimate – total control over your wealth. If you look back over your life with her, it’s easy to see that you and your welfare were never really in her mind and heart. If it were, she would have learned how to cook for you at a minimum. There is NO doubt that in this image (if you love pussy), she is far more attractive than I’ll ever be but, know what?…as we live that last 1/4 or 1/3 of our lives, we know that there is something more wonderful than sex with a perfect or “super hot” person. The mind, heart and soul and far more attractive at 56 than a hot, perfect body will ever be. I wish her the best…health, love and long life but I never want to be in her orbit again.
I awakened this morning with you in my heart. I could feel you wherever you are. Literally. Seemed as if I could hear you breathing?!!! I asked father, “what is the message today?” The image above and two unique songs by Michael immediately came into my mind. Father and I are co-creators and when he speaks, I listen and take it from there.
First song is “they don’t care about us!” Of course, Michael was talking about Joo’s and regarding blacks – but listen closely to the lyrics and you can easily see why father put this song into my head.
This next song by Michael is, undoubtedly, inspired by father (from me to you) and so very true. Listen closely to EVERY WORD. Every word. If you want to see my full heart in lyrics – watch closely. It’s long…but watch all the way until the end. You’ll think the song is over but he speaks at the end.
Below, gaze upon images that tell the story very well…
It’s not too late…
I’m so grateful and excited that you expressed a desire…xo
I hope you’re having a nice day? Cloudy and drizzling here. I’m about to go to Lowe’s to get electrical switch plate covers, etc. Every day here is but one day closer to being with my Puppy Dawg. Keep me close…I’m always with there with you. I love you so much!! xo