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NOTE: if you haven’t, re-read my post here…lots of editing done after the initial post. Had to write it on my phone and the app is very difficult. xo
Hey, honey…
Hoping you’ve had a great day. One filled with PEACE in your heart that can ONLY come from knowing how much you are loved. Way out beyond what you’re living in today…beyond all those folks that surround you each day (I don’t think they know the Puppy I know?)…and the many that call themselves your fans – way out beyond all that, there’s YOU and ME and the sweetest, most authentic love. Know what comes from that kind of love? PEACE and REST. Soul rest.
In your most recent video (for Christine), you look so tired. Truly – soul tired. You shouldn’t be living in those conditions and feeling tense and stressed everyday. I worry about you. Your words about her, the OCD and how she treats you when you leave a door open (or whatever) – it’s breaks my heart. She’d be in a trailer someplace or, at best, a simple 3 bedroom cheap house if it weren’t for you and all you’ve sacrificed for the lavish lifestyle she lives each day (and has for decades). If I’m so blessed, when we’re together – if you ever leave a door open…know what? I’ll just quietly close it. It will be my pleasure. Do you have any idea how many times I closed the pantry doors behind you? In 2.5 months time – probably a hundred or more. You’d come in…go into the pantry to get something (a snack or supplement, etc) and then OUT you’d go – doors wide open. I was in the kitchen with my candle burning and music playing while working on our dinner. I’d simply close the doors and watch you as you walked away….off down the hall towards the garage or into the master suite of the house.
What’s the difference? The difference is – I love and adore you and I WANT to take care of you and make your life better…easier and more PEACEFUL. Simple. For me, it’s not a competition…I don’t feel the need to direct or control you. I want you to be at peace and able to rest your mind. I cannot imagine enjoying all the gifts you’ve given her? She takes it ALL for granted and has for years. She feels she is entitled to what you’ve earned. She literally told me in GB (back in ’98) that she “deserved” everything she was enjoying then. I was shocked she said that but, yep – she absolutely told me that one fall morning while sitting in the den on that white sectional. All I could say was “wow”. I’ve never forgotten her saying that. NO ONE has ever bought me a car…much less a $120K Cadillac or BMW. Somehow..some way, I’ve made it this far on my own. Who on earth would treat another person that way after all you’ve done for her?
When I saw your handsome face in that video and listened to your voice – once again, I just wanted to put my arms around you and love you. I wanted to say – come lay down with me, baby…let’s rest and just be together.
My gate was finally reconnected today a month later…then only to find out the remote control runs on a different wire – so the electrician will be back next week. Yikes. Seems never ending. We got the shutters installed yesterday and much of the construction junk hauled away by Peachtree Junk. Glad it’s gone. As noted, next week will be the installation of lighting fixtures, appliances, etc and the exterior painting of this house – after that, preparations to list it for sale. I am so tired, honey…send me some love and good wishes. I am so looking forward to some down time at the farm – simple, safe, peaceful and quiet. It could only be better if you were there with me.
Get some rest and keep me close, I’m right there in your heart. I’m always with you. I love you so much, B!!! Nite Nite. xo