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Hey, Puppy. I hope you’re okay and enjoying this beautiful, sunny, summer day?! I had a very vivid lucid dream last night. Per typical, I awakened around 3:30 am…sat up in bed and just contemplated what I’d experienced. In the dream, I was sitting at a table with a shadowy figure. I think it was father? There were questions and answers. Father asked me if I could REMEMBER who and where I was prior to December 1968? For you, that would have been prior to Jan 1969. Our gestation took 9 months…where were we prior to the moment we entered our mother’s womb? I know that I was with you. Do you remember me sharing the song video from the movie GHOST years ago? Patrick was kneeling in an alley…he was holding Demi Moore in death. She had been shot by a random thug. He was devastated as her life force left her body.

While there is no proof, I know (somehow) that we’ve been traveling together for a long long time. As I’ve shared many times – there is just something so familiar (and very special) about you. EVERYTHING about you. Especially your unique voice and your precious touch. The morning I held and squeezed your hand so tight…the warmth (and your heartbeat) I felt, it was unlike any other I’ve experienced in my life, including my own mother (which was incredibly special). In that moment, ALL my instincts were confirmed. I can only image being alone with you (her and everyone GONE)….just us…holding each other in the candlelight with soft, etheral music playing. We’ll both know…we’ve made it back home. I’m so looking forward to spending my days and nights with you. Only the cuddles with our boys could make it any better. For sure, this song (every word) speaks to my heart and this dream. We’ve lived before (likely many times) and we will again. We’ve both been living our current life on random exits (often feeling stuck or trapped). How wonderful to think that we are about to re-enter life’s great highway TOGETHER again! Such a long time coming but we’ll make the MOST of every day…every moment. I often think of how blessed I’ll feel to get my evening shower and come climb into our big cozy bed with you…snuggle up close then fall asleep knowing that I’m lying next to the person that I love more than anyone one earth.

I’m heading out to Home Depot to get a few things. I continue to work on loose ends here…preparing for the photographer new week. Not sure which day but should be next week followed by the listing.

Enjoy this day and stay safe, okay? Be sure to drink your water and eat healthy things – hopefully soon I can lift that burden OFF you and have everything planned and prepared for you each day. What a joy to care for my Puppy dawg! Keep us close. I love you so much! xo

June 22, 2026. Yesterday was Carsons birthday! He is 15 years old!!! I’m so blessed to have enjoyed the companionship of this sweet little creature for 15 years. I don’t take a single DAY for granted…every day (and moment) is so precious. Know what, honey? That’s how I see you (and us)…and how I will live out my days if we’re so blessed to be one. You know that I’ll take great care of big Puppy, too – perhaps we’ll live to be 90+ years old?! Oh the things we’ll do and the fun we’ll have.

I’ve got an idea. Let’s pretend that we’re in our late 30’s or early 40’s and just plan to live longer?!! What say you? Why not, right? This picture displays what personal “legacy” looks like perfectly! You’ve already accomplished elite level professional “legacy”…and the creation of sweet #3. NOW – are you ready for what’s next? So exciting. Holding this baby boy close is what “walking in fields of gold” feels like.

Of course, I’ve shared this song many times but it never grows old. So very special – especially the late great Eva Cassidy’s version. Deeply spiritual for those that have the heart to feel it.

Quick note – As you’ve likely seen, I deleted all the images that included you in your father’s day post. Clearly, for obvious reasons.

I hope you’re okay and enjoying this sunny day. I’m about to go water plants then back in to work on a few personal loose ends. The electrician came yesterday and knocked out everything but 3 small items on the list. All lighting fixtures are now hung and the wiring for the 3 new fireplaces (and new den) have been connected to the main breaker box. It was so fun seeing the electronic fireplaces come on yesterday! Long time coming. He will return later this week to do the lighting under the kitchen cabinets plus a couple other small things. WE’RE CLOSE NOW, Puppy!

Stay safe and feel my love…it’s always with you. I love you so much, honey! xo

The words of this song are perfect. Listen closely. Make NO mistake, you WILL be our boys hero…and mine, too.

“you wore the scars so I could wear the crown” – no truer words…you KNOW what is coming (unavoidable) and you understand there WILL be scars (from your current crew and some friends, the public, to your ego and, of course, financially)…but what on earth could be more important than following our hearts? What could be more important than making a way for our sons? Your scars will allow them to wear a crown someday. I can only imagine us awakening on a sunny Sunday morning in Montana or wherever you want to live. A beautiful PRIVATE home…the boys at 3 or 4 years old – giggling and jumping around on the bed with us. Then, it’s time for pancakes followed by adventures! Oh, what will be do each and every precious Sunday (and everyday) that we are gifted for you and I both know – for us, they are very limited, indeed.

“a silent warrior with a heart of GOLD” – that’s YOU and how you will be received and treated for the rest of your life.

“oh, dad – you’re the light in the dark, the one who gave my soul the spark” – the boys are in the ether (the darkness) and you…you are the light in the dark. NOTE: to give a soul “the spark” is to give someone in the ether > LIFE!!! When a sperm makes contact with an egg and pierces the outer shell (the exact millisecond), there is a literal SPARK. It’s known as “the spark of life”.

We love you, honey. Enjoy this day…eat some yummy food and keep us close. We are ALWAYS with you. xo