Against All Odds

Hey, honey. I hope you’ve had a nice day! Is your tummy full of good food? Healthy food? I hope so. As we draw near to this important anniversary (or birthday as you call it)…I thought I’d share some of our past. A little nostalgia. Gaze and consider the powerful meaning of each image, the text written and definitely, the song lyrics. Every word. I’ll never forget when this “thumbs up” popped up on my Sqr profile. Lol. I was so confused but excited, too. I’d ask – how did you do that? Of course, you had back door access to the whole website. In honor of Mother’s Day – I’m sharing this old Sqr post about Noah. I still feel him and have never lost hope.

I loved your video and words today. You have no idea how loved and wanted you are. You have no idea how appreciated you are. I’m here for you through whatever we may face hence until we leave this old world behind.

Work here today has been intense. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed as the living arrangements and conditions are getting very uncomfortable. Plastic and tape covering all the bathroom fixtures etc upstairs (has to be removed and replaced daily – yikes!)…last night, it rained hard here and the mud was slippery and dangerous. Very dim lighting. The pup is old I was carrying him…I slipped and fell in the red mud – we were a mess. I just wanted to cry. No matter, we forge onward!

Get some good rest, okay? Tell the sandman that Poppy said, “hello!” You KNOW where I am. I love you so much. Nite Nite. xo

Hey, honey. Hoping you’ve had a nice day? Tummy full? I hope so. It’s been a crazy busy 48 hours here. The grading happened here yesterday. Full day from 7:30 am to 9 pm. He literally left after dark. I’ve used this guy several times for clients yards prior to landscaping. There was an old concrete terrace in the backyard here…it was badly cracked and broken and needed to be removed. Not cheap – yikes. I had to hire this guy who runs a bobcat / skidder, a dump truck on stand by AND a stump grinder. They were all here yesterday. It’s turned out the way I wanted but lots more work to do. Stone (for walking paths), top soil, sand, grass sod, mulch/straw will be delivered next week and the landscaping can begin. I’m very excited as it signals the approaching end of this. In the process, he cut the power to my gate/entry and also the cable/internet. No matter, super nice bunch of guys and I’m so glad that we’ve gotten this part done.

Tomorrow morning is the start of the sanding and refinishing of all the hardwood floors in this house. The new hardwood (for the new den) was installed last week but the sanding and finish work begins tomorrow. Antonio said they will be here through Sunday or Monday to get this finished.

I’ll be ordering the lighting fixtures I’ve chosen and the new stove/ stove hood etc tomorrow. They should arrive in about 10 days time – hoping to be ready for install by then. At that point, I’ll be working on finishing touches…and continuing to pack the basement.

Get some good rest and keep me close….I’m right there inside your heart. That’s where I live, you know. That’s my home. That’s where I love being. I love you, baby. Nite Nite. xo

I’m not sure it was THIS evening…but I think it was? I was in the kitchen cooking and you came strolling in there. You went into the fridge (far left side of the stove). I desperately wanted Betty Who’s song to come on the house music system. I’d heard it several times that same day. I remember asking father, PLEASE, let Betty’s song come on. Unbelievably, IT DID!!! You lingered and listened…I could clearly tell you were listening…and I KNEW that YOU KNEW (somehow) I was thrilled that it had come on. The song delivered a message to you that I wasn’t allowed to. So, for old time sake, here’s Betty’s song:

We’re in bed now as I write. It’s been a long day and exhaustion has set in. I hope you’ve had a nice day and your tummy is full? I loved your posts today and I needed them. It’s hard sometimes to keep going when I see very little from you…though I understand your situation. When I saw you today and heard your voice, it made me cry. I miss you so much. I wanted to walk up behind you and put my arms around you. Go to the store and get some super fresh ingredients and make us a nice dinner…then us go to bed and watch a movie and cuddle a bit. To be with you…even this late in life will be my greatest blessing. The whole experience will be bittersweet as I’ll be so happy to be with you but desperately sad that we’ve missed decades of incredible experiences. No matter, I’m looking forward.

As you’d expect, I often wonder about what you have in mind and how this will happen? Of course, I understand it could happen in different ways but still, I wonder. When I saw you this afternoon, I realized (likely you too) that time is quickly evaporating. Our time is short and we’ll need to take action soon if we hope to have any good years together. Like you mentioned today…the future and what it holds is coming fast. We don’t know what we’ll face? Rest assured, if we can finally be together and I can be blessed with good health – you’ll be taken care of like a King. You’ll even get lots of kisses on your nose and eyelids. Other places, too. *wink*

Get some rest and keep me close. You KNOW, right? Yep – right there in your heart. I love you, B. xo

While I’ve shared a clip of this video before, this is the entire 6 minute segment prepared by Jenna Bush, their grand daughter. Have a watch – it’s so good.

Oh, my sweet Puppy dog – how many letters have I written to you? No doubt, hundreds.

Things here are ongoing…each day is one day closer. Sure would love to see you share something encouraging via C or in whatever way might be possible. She must have you in near total lockdown? Enjoy this beautiful day and keep me close. You know where I am. I love you! xo