Against All Odds

Hey, honey…hoping you’ve enjoyed this day. Typical here with the exception of a dental appointment. As you know, every post I make is inspired by father…he guides my mind and actions, always. Not sure why he compelled me to post this today but I did. When this house is listed and sold and I’m fully moved home to the farm – let’s not wait too long to be together, okay? Our time, at the longest, is short and….Oh, Puppy – we’ve still got so much living to do!! So many places to go and things to see. So MANY firsts! I love you and cannot wait. Listen to Amy’s song (yet again) and know that every word is true. “that’s what love is for”….defines and describes the very foundation of the heart and WHY / HOW you’ll find the strength to break the bonds you’ve been living in for many years…escaping to a new place, home, relationship and children – all of whom love you and want nothing but good things for you. Imagine waking each day….joyful and light-hearted…the heavy, sometimes dark, decades long, weight finally lifted. Please don’t contemplate undue risks…no risk to you or our unborn sons is worth it (in the end). Simply practice that day and moment and do it. Do the right thing for her (settle) but let her go. Sleep well and keep me close – I love you so much! xo

Hey, Puppy. Hope you’re having a nice day? Tummy full? Wish I could’ve made your lunch to include a pear and a big bowl of ice cold watermelon. Do you remember what I said (texted) you in late September 2014? It was my last day there with you. She was no where to be found, of course. I asked, “may I have the pleasure of making your sandwich once more?” As you know very well (12 years later)…I was being honest and sincere that day. Taking care of Puppy was so very special to me.

I found the long quote below yesterday and it reminded me so much of you and your life with her (and her’s). Seems caring for you in an intimate way was never her dream – only how you (and your power) have made her look and feel? Maybe I’m wrong but, from an outsiders perspective (a person that was privy to her every thought and secret action) – your welfare was never really on her mind…only what she felt entitled to?! Her primary question when thinking of you is/was, “what are YOU going to do for ME?” “You owe me.” Very sad. A normal, truly humble person who has enjoyed the enormous gifts (of every kind) that you’ve provided for 3 decades AND who loved you dearly would jump at that chance to take great care of you.

The absolutely wonderful experience of showing your love for another through little actions is everything. You have done so much in your life…accomplished more than 1000 men combined and yet, “make ME an egg sandwich!!” Read the quote below and consider every word. It’s you. You have poured so much into her and that group and seems you’re left to fend for yourself (at times). For sure, she’s ready to blame you for every unfortunate thing that has come her way…all while (somehow) not sincerely recognizing what you’ve done for her? You deserve so much more. Listen to the song I’ve selected for you today…every word. Always remember that Poppy will “stand by you” and take care of you – no matter what we face.

It’s another working day here…guy here now pressure washing the driveway and 3 yards of river rocks are being delivered any minute (for the water swale). Enjoy the afternoon and keep me close. You know where I am and it’s the honor of my life to be THERE (inside your heart). I love you so much, honey. xo

Hey, baby. Things are the same here (working)…but pushing hard to the goal. I’m tired tonight and my head is hurting a bit so will keep this short. I hope you’ve had a nice day and a yummy dinner. Keep me close…you know! I love you, honey. xo

Hey honey…first and most important – thank you. I love and appreciate you so much. It’s late here so will keep this short. It’s been a very busy working holiday weekend for me. I filmed (almost 6 minutes) what I’ve been working on (a long water swale / 120′ long) to direct water away from the lawn and down to the lower part of this lot – massive undertaking (my last outdoor project here). Anyway, this website has “limits” on time so wouldn’t allow me to upload it. I may post it on Noah and Jeffrey’s facebook page – I’ll let you know if I decide to do that. My yard guys had dug it out about 6 weeks ago but wasn’t quite deep enough so I did that followed by lining with landscape fabric (underlayment) then had to secure the outer edges with heavy stones. It flooded here about 3 hours ago (huge early evening rain shower) and I was able to see how successful it is. Hopefully I can figure out where to post the video so you can see – it works fantastic! Hundreds of gallons of water flow perfectly to the lower part of this property.

An update on Carson – I am thrilled to report that he is doing better. He’s eating his food and seems mostly back to himself? Of course, I take it one day (if not one hour) at the time…taking nothing for granted ever. As you know, y’all are BOTH my puppy dawgs and I love you both to the moon. I realize time is short but everyday is so special.

Get some rest and keep me close…I’m tucked away right there in your heart. That’s where I live! Did you know that, Puppy? I do. I love living inside your heart. You’re in my heart, too. Still dreaming of “moon river”…I love you! xo