Against All Odds

Hey, Puppy.

I reached out with questions and you’ve not shared anything to give me hope. Rather, yet another cryptic post where you continue in the same way – “GLAD I didn’t cross paths with K H after hearing B J’s experience”. Also, you never make videos anymore on C that are public? It’s been over 2 weeks since the last one. As you know, that was a way to communicate that now seems gone.

What I wrote here a few days ago stands. I’ve never wanted to harm you in any way…only love you. I’ve been 100% committed to you (and us) since I begin communicating again last spring. I’ve worked nonstop since completing projects then packing and moving out of my house…now working on the renovation preparing to sell. What an unbelievable rollercoaster.

As I’ve said many times, no matter how this turns out, I will always love you. You are/were my person if only in a spiritual/emotional sense. I am heartbroken. I guess the hope of our boys will be buried today. Please take good care of yourself, okay? Eat good and healthy foods and keep moving. Take your supplements and do lots of brain exercises (challenges) online. They will help to keep your mind/memory sharp. If you ever need Poppy, just reach out – I’ll be there.

I love you, honey… yesterday, today and forever. xo

I wonder if baby boy used “Moon and Stars” watermelon? For sure, he’s after daddy’s heart loving watermelon! Nothing like cold watermelon on a hot summer day.

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We are working on the house even today (Sunday). I’m really tired but highly committed so pushing through.

I need to share that after your most recent posts, I am confused and am asking you to clarify. I’m hoping I read the messages wrong but if accurate, just let me know. As I’ve said MANY times, I don’t ever want to harm you in any way. I only want to love you. I don’t ever want you to leave your current sidekick and long time life for me unless YOU are 100% sure that’s the path that YOU want to take. I never want to hear (years down the road) that I (somehow) caused you to leave your former life. This must be YOUR decision and totally your call. I’m fine being alone. We are living our 57th year now and I’ve never had anyone in my life to love or to love me – so I’m use to being alone with the pup. I ONLY want to share a life with you if it’s 100% what you want. If you choose to stay with her, all the best to you both. I’ll leave the blog here for a week or so then set it to private. For all intents and purposes, it will be gone. You won’t hear from me for a while as I’ll need time to accept this and settle my heart. Here’s what you posted and how it looks from THIS side.

“hopefully Christian doesn’t have Alzheimer’s”

Are you saying that YOU’VE been recently tested and possibly have Alzheimer’s?

“just remember it’s not the amount of times you fall down but the number of times you get up to help others”

Are you preparing me for the wind being knocked out of me when you declare our dream is now not possible?

“that’s the loss that hurts most – BUT IT WASN’T MEANT TO BE”

Are you telling me that WE and our little family aren’t meant to be?

“Christian was one of the best running backs that would punish whoever tried to bring him down”

Are you suggesting that I would ever attempt to “bring you down” out of spite? If so, that’s insane.

“and glad I don’t ever have to face him on the field again”

Are you saying that you’re glad you don’t ever have to see me again?

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Hey, baby… hope your having a great day! Sunny and a bit cool here. Rained hard all night but hoping it’s done for today – we’re doing work both inside and out. As I often day – onward!

Take good care of Puppy, okay? He’s my sweetheart and I love him so much! xo

Hey, honey. Hoping you’ve had a nice day? It’s been sunny here most of the day and even now. The workers will leave soon and I’m running out to Farm Burger to grab a bite with Dense. They have indeed started installing the moldings and I’m thrilled about it. Still lots to do and this work is so unpredictable even when well planned. For sure, we’re getting there one day at the time.

Can you believe how much Carter favors you (and your doppelganger pictured here)? He is literally a mini you (as a young man)…more so than when you were his age. I’m so excited to see how Noah is going to look! I will gaze at him (and you) all the time. To see him on lying on your chest or you holding him – well, we’ll have made it home, finally.

Rest well tonight and keep me close. I love you so much! xo

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