Quick note to say that I’m okay and feeling better. I’ll be driving back to the city Wednesday morning. Once back, I’ll continue the packing and moving prep. Still lots to do.
The pup seems to be a wee bit better?! Every day is a surprise. We just enjoy every day we have together.
I want you to know that I’m a little confused. You’re very quiet?! I watched your podcast today. Not really sure what’s going on? I guess you’ll clarify soon. While I have great faith in father and you…I’m so worried about you. About us. I just can’t shake it.
After seeing your podcast today, I got some really strange vibes. Just let me know if you’ve changed your mind about things? I can change course. I don’t ever want you to feel “targeted” by me. I only want good things for you. I don’t ever want you to feel pressured by me to do anything. Any decision to change your path should be 100% your own and fully heartfelt. I never want you to look back in regret. I love you too much to hurt you in any way.
If we’re never together and I live out this experience alone…I’ll have to accept that. After all, I’ve been alone all my life.
Get some rest wherever you are. I love you so much. xo
I hope you’re having a nice day? I’m still here at the farm “recovering” (at this point). I went for a covid test and it was positive. Apparently, there’s a new strain for 2025 that manifests as a bad “migraine like” headache, very low fever, dry cough and exhaustion. When I read that, I went for the test. I’m 3 days in so should start to feel better tomorrow or soon! I surely hope so. Like you, I NEVER took the demonic vax – thank God. I’m on the side of natural immunity doing it’s thing.
So…with you EVER in my heart (every minute), I ask father this morning for a gift. As I meditated, I asked him to show me (or us) what Noah might look like? As I’ve done many times, I said….let his face be in the first baby I see! Once again, he did not disappoint – I opened up my computer and this sweet baby was in an image on FB. I don’t know who this is, it was random but I was shocked. Look closely at this newborn’s face. Who does he look like? I think he looks exactly like YOU! Wow…that’s all I can say.
I hope you’re having a good time wherever you are? Again, my gut feeling is Steamboat? Please be careful and safe no matter what you’re up to and feel my love. Hopefully I can share what’s been on my mind lately soon – number one is (at least partly) what I shared yesterday. I’ll expand on the “thriller” soon. Number two is just some thoughts about myself that I’d like you to know. You know 99.9% about me but there are a few things I want to share. It’s said that sincere, deep love can overshadow anything but it’s important to be 100% honest with those we hope to share our life with. No big surprises but I want to be transparent.
Stay safe and vigilant. I right there with you. I love you so much!! xo
I’ll make this quick today and post later if I can. I developed a bad migraine in the early hours of Xmas day. As you know (I think)…I get these from time to time. At least twice a month – the bad ones literally knock me out. I have to retreat into a dark room (no light), no smells or brash sounds until it passes. I have medicine I take and, often times, it knocks them out in a few hours but sometimes, it take 24 hours or longer to pass. I guess after we’re together, when this happens, you’ll have some soup or gumbo I’ve put in the freezer? You know me, always thinking of you.
While I’ve not been tested, I may have covid, not sure? Sometimes covid begins with a head cold/stuffiness and bad headache – that’s exactly what happened. Yesterday was brutal…today is better but I’m still not even close to myself.
As you might be able to understand, I’m also very emotional right now because of the pup and others that are in peril around the world. There’s so many things going on these days. I think these incessant thoughts about things (and outcomes) have really wreaked my mind. I want to be with you so much but don’t want to hurt others, as you know.
The pup is hanging on…labored breathing last night but made it through and awakened again with an appetite and was able to stand and walk a bit though not too far and very weak. Again, we’re just taking it one day at the time.
I watched a “thriller” recently (true story) and it really opened my eyes to things that I didn’t know are possible. Did you know that everything we do in/on our phones is forever and discoverable? Even if we lose the phone or it’s irrepairably broken. In fact, it goes for both our phones and all computers, too. I found out that they are programed during their creation to collect and store every key stroke (in an unseen, unique way). If a person is investigated for any reason – every website they’ve ever been to or any action taken on their device is easily discoverable, again, even IF they have erased their “tracks”. There is a mirror inside the device that collects and keeps every move made. The information cannot be deleted and any investigator can see a persons every move. For example, it can be discovered that you’ve visited Noah’s page and how many times (hundreds?) and my FB page and even this website. If that ever happened (for example) they would review those websites or pages and read what’s there even though I have them set to private or “friends only” OR even if I deleted or deactivated them. Very interesting and creepy. I guess one wouldn’t want to ever be investigated, right?! Yikes. I’ll attach some screen shots below the music video. The “thriller” was unique with a narrator…she stated that…”it’s always either about money or a lover or BOTH”.
I’m going to lie down with the pup for a while and try to ease this headache. If possible, I’ll post before I got to bed. I hope you’re having a nice day. I love you!! xo
Hey, honey. Merry Christmas Eve – 2025. How is that possible? We are now living our 57th year of life. 60 is our next big one.
I posted this little video years ago…I think it was 2017? That would be 8 years ago. I shared how this little dog was anxiously waiting for Santa. He’d put colorful lights on his house, hung his Christmas stocking, made him cookies and even left out a yummy glass of milk. He waited and waited and waited. At one point, he barked up at the night sky hoping to get Santa’s attention. After a long while, he fell asleep but with HOPE in his heart. Remarkably, Santa finally showed up and left him a bone. So sweet.
Puppy, will you ever show up in my life or will I fall asleep alone until this experience is over? I guess time will tell.
I’m understandably a bit down tonight….I’m here alone with the pup. As you know, my parents are gone now and the pup is old and weak. Soon he’ll be gone, too. Even so, I try to remain thankful for all the blessings in my life…number one after my health is your love. I’m not sure why you’d be interested in me? I’m not that attractive and, like you, getting older every day.
I hope you enjoy this holiday with those you live with. All I’ve ever wanted is for you to be happy, healthy and safe. Not sure but thinking you might be off to Steamboat soon?
Get some rest and always remember that you are loved big by an odd character born 30 days before you. Nite Nite. xo
