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Hoping you’ve had a great day. I made it back to the farm around 2 today. Our Christmas was very simple but joyful. It was nice to see everyone if only for one night. After I posted here last night and turned out the lights…I didn’t get much sleep. I kept waking up to check on the pup…I’d just feel for him in the shadows. His breathing was very shallow and weak. Honestly, I was sure he was going to pass during the night but, per typical, he awakened okay and even had a decent appetite. He was able to walk around and pee, etc. I’m just taking it one day at the time.

I worked on the function of this website all afternoon and was able to upload the video I’d made for you yesterday while driving…it’s attached to the previous post. Look below and you can watch it. Very short but sweet. You’ve heard the song many times. I’m frustrated with this – though I was able to get that video posted, I’m having issues doing it again? Not sure why? I’ll continue this work…hopefully I can figure it out soon?!

Honey, are you ready for Santa? I wish I could buy and give you a special gift tomorrow night or early Christmas morning. Hopefully someday…

Get some good rest. Keep me close. I’m right there under those covers. Nite Nite…I love you! xo

I hope you’ve had a nice day? Tummy full? I hope so! You probably get tired of me writing that but, know what, I am always being sincere when I ask that. I can’t wait to be sure you never go to bed hungry or a tummy full of cereal, a prepared meal or egg sandwich. Not my handsome husband. On my drive to Louisiana today, I was thinking about how I can be sure you get a whole avocado, walnuts, matcha powder, etc in your body everyday. I think the best way is to make a shake daily – mid morning. I’ll also be creative with salads and in other ways.

I arrived here at my sisters around 4. We had a nice visit before my nieces and nephew got here….with all their littles. Yikes – this place has been LOUD! haha. P (Prescott – the youngest) got lots of gifts but his favorite was a radio controlled school bus. Lol. I filmed him out in the garage playing with it. He is precious.

I filmed a few minutes driving here with a nice song playing….attempted to post that video here but couldn’t figure it out? It never would load? I’ll have to figure that out soon. I would share the short video of P playing with his school bus tonight but, again, I can’t. I will soon.

Puppy, you look tired as I feel in your recent video (made in the green room)…I hope you are getting enough sleep. Like the correct foods, proper hydration, etc….enough and proper sleep is essential for your PD and brain health. Please try to rest, okay?! I know you can be an anxious person and often awaken in the night and super early in the morning but, honey, try to get at least 7 hours if you can. When watching you in the video today….I wanted to walk in that room….grab your hand and say…let’s go to our room, close the blinds, turn the AC down low and take a little nap. I’d close your eye lids and give them a little kiss.

While I won’t share my thoughts tonight (that I mentioned last night)…I do want to say that I love and respect you 100%. My heartfelt thoughts come from a place of great love and deep concern for your welfare, always – NEVER from a place of judgement. I have no intention or desire to “direct” your path…only give insight into things that I think you should know. After that, it’s totally your call. I’m prepared to stand by you through whatever comes our way.

The pup is about he same but still showing signs of weakness and decline. This is a stressful and unsettling time for both him and me. I’m grateful for every day.

Get some rest and keep me close. I want to hug and hold you so much. Nite Nite…love you! xo

Longer post below but had to share these little bears. ❤️

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Hey, baby.

Oh, for this night. We’ve waited such a long long time. I can’t wait to be physically close to you…your warmth. For me, finally alone with my love…truly, there’ll be no one else on earth. I can’t wait to have a candle burning…soft music…and, in the shadows, kiss and taste you. Hold you and be held by you. Somehow I know it will be familiar. How? Somehow I know.

It’s been a long day and finally time for lights out. Have you ever been excited about sleep? Lol. That’s me tonight. As noted, I am reading between the lines and my heart is heavy. I wanted to share a few thoughts today but just haven’t had a minute to write them. Most are a repeat from earlier this year posted on N’s FB page – but I need to share again here. I know where your heart is…where your mind is. Mostly, I realize you have the heart of warrior but I’m worried about things…especially about you. I’ll say briefly, for me, there is NO RISK to you or your life, legacy and freedom worth taking. None.

As much as I love you (more than anything or anyone) I would willingly walk away or, at most, continue onward the way we are now…the way we love each other tonight rather than you be hurt (or anyone) in any way. Once actions are taken, they cannot be undone. Everyone has value. YOU are precious to me in a way I cannot even understand myself? I don’t want you to be harmed, stressed or worse.

There are two things (or topics) that I want to share with you very soon…next couple days. Perhaps one tomorrow night then the other Tuesday night? We’ll see if time permits?

Get some rest and keep me close. You KNOW, right? Yep….right there in your heart. Nite Nite…I love you! xo