Just 4 days shy of 11 years ago, I prepared all the flowers for the house. Amazing how fresh flowers can bring a space to life!
Puppy’s salad. Yep – you ate this nearly 11 years ago tonight. Organic mixed greens, fugi apple slices, pecans, cranberries and homemade vinaigrette.
Puppy’s dinner. Slow cooked pork with onions and apples (they made an amazing gravy), fresh green beans and couscous.
I had shared Steve Jobs famous quote on Sqor that day. Of course, like all things I did…it was a message uniquely for you. I was working hard “throwing that line out to you”. xo
I’m not sure it was THIS evening…but I think it was? I was in the kitchen cooking and you came strolling in there. You went into the fridge (far left side of the stove). I desperately wanted Betty Who’s song to come on the house music system. I’d heard it several times that same day. I remember asking father, PLEASE, let Betty’s song come on. Unbelievably, IT DID!!! You lingered and listened…I could clearly tell you were listening…and I KNEW that YOU KNEW (somehow) I was thrilled that it had come on. The song delivered a message to you that I wasn’t allowed to. So, for old time sake, here’s Betty’s song:
We’re in bed now as I write. It’s been a long day and exhaustion has set in. I hope you’ve had a nice day and your tummy is full? I loved your posts today and I needed them. It’s hard sometimes to keep going when I see very little from you…though I understand your situation. When I saw you today and heard your voice, it made me cry. I miss you so much. I wanted to walk up behind you and put my arms around you. Go to the store and get some super fresh ingredients and make us a nice dinner…then us go to bed and watch a movie and cuddle a bit. To be with you…even this late in life will be my greatest blessing. The whole experience will be bittersweet as I’ll be so happy to be with you but desperately sad that we’ve missed decades of incredible experiences. No matter, I’m looking forward.
As you’d expect, I often wonder about what you have in mind and how this will happen? Of course, I understand it could happen in different ways but still, I wonder. When I saw you this afternoon, I realized (likely you too) that time is quickly evaporating. Our time is short and we’ll need to take action soon if we hope to have any good years together. Like you mentioned today…the future and what it holds is coming fast. We don’t know what we’ll face? Rest assured, if we can finally be together and I can be blessed with good health – you’ll be taken care of like a King. You’ll even get lots of kisses on your nose and eyelids. Other places, too. *wink*
Get some rest and keep me close. You KNOW, right? Yep – right there in your heart. I love you, B. xo