This little video was one of the sweetest gifts I’ve ever received. So very simple (only seconds) but so profound as your precious love was on full display! In all the world, only you and I knew this. Imagine all the sweet (but subtle) communication we’ve shared? Oh, the chances we’ve taken over the past 10-20 years.
You’ve given her literally EVERYTHING – the privilege of your hand at childhood dances, was her handsome prom date, mansions, cars, private flights, debts paid, plastic surgeries, audiences of celebrities & presidents…you’ve given her great power over others, wealth and status…yet, even on this very day – she feels you’ve failed her somehow? In her mind, you have many wrongs to “make right” and lots to “make up” to her?! Hmmmmm. No doubt, she feels (unbelievably) that you OWE her? I KNOW this for a fact, first hand. Truly…unreal. Textbook borderline. Delusional covert narcissist.
All I’ve ever had the privilege of enjoying is LOVING and SERVING you – yet still, on this day, that’s my greatest joy and wish for the future. If you’re well cared for, then I’m happy. To love and care for you and our sweet little family – that’s the dream. I was gifted the warmth of your hand in mine one special (and very quick) moment during that powerful early morning prayer. I was gifted this sweet little video the morning after you’d received your jacket. As you’ll remember, I felt overwhelmed seeing you there being honored and unable to be with you. I had left you that sad voicemail post…l’d posted it later the same night after you’d gotten your jacket.
You’ve given me so many sweet little “hidden” gifts – all of which I am grateful for. Not ONE was material but so special. Another that comes to mind – it was an evening that you’d felt the great heaviness of my heart perfectly. It was when we’d gone to dinner at MaLi here in midtown. Y’all were here for the Volley Tourney. You’ll remember well when we sat down in that booth – you were against the wall, she was in the middle and I was on the outer portion of the bench. It’s true, my heart was so heavy. I wanted you so much….to BE WITH YOU (just us) so badly. She was acting out (per usual…being rude). I looked past her face and over at you…in that moment, you gazed back at me with the deepest stare I’ve ever experienced in my life. In those seconds, I fell into the abyss of your eyes. You HELD that stare for several seconds. I was immediately restored. I felt as light as a feather. It was like I was floating. We’d touched. Visually. Soulfully. Absolutely. Unquestionably. We were connected and NO ONE could STOP IT…or what is surely COMING in the future – even on this day. Somehow I know that we (and our boys) are destiny.
I have said many times, “I’m not sure you can know how much I love you, even I don’t fully understand it?” But, know what? After all these years, I feel confident that YOU KNOW how much Poppy loves you. If I leave this world today, I am 100% confident that YOU KNOW. It makes me cry.
We’re working here today. I hope you’re enjoying this day for we’ll never see this one again. Keep me close, okay? You know where I live – I’m literally inside your heart at this very moment. I love you, Puppy. xo
LINK to video I made…(only shows an arrow). Play it.
I was loved by Puppy…xo